I am on 60mg of Roaccutane and think writing this diary may help me. I am so down about my skin, I am not sure if I can take the thought of it not clearing up. Each time i think its getting better it just gets a whole lot worse again…. feel like I am being punished for something. I had a course of Roaccutane when I was 18 and it was amazing, did the job for 10 years. Then my acne started to return. I just feel like such a monster all the time. I think I was in denial at first and didnt want to go back to the docs, spend a fortune on lotions and potions and had that laser thing. Nothing worked. Finally relaised I needed to go back to a dermatologist so did (couldnt stop crying when I got there, typical!). Had some antibiotics and then it dawned on me that I was going to have to have another course of Roacc. I am pleased that I have done it and had 20mg for 4 weeks and then I went to 60mg for about 5 weeks. I am still getting spots though and they are very sore. Getting all the usual side effects like dry skin, sore eyes and peeling skin. I wouldn’t mind if I thought I was going to get clear skin though. I just feel like I am never going to get better. I got married last year and my poor husband must wish he had never met me. I am always crying and never want to leave the house( i force myself coz I DO NOT want the acne to beat me). I am usually really outgoing but I just feel like it is killing me slowly inside. No one seems to understand how horrible it is and how I feel. I have found this website and its great to be able to read the diaries. I am just so scared that this isnt going to work. I am 30 in October and I am so desperate to be free of this before then. I feel like I am in a nightmare that I just cant wake up from. How quickly should I expect to get results?
Actually this is already starting to help, whoever came up with this idea, its such a good one! thanks! When I had this years ago all I had was an old acne mag and my diary to write in, now you can share which does make you feel far less alone…
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