sparklypickle: One week after the end
September 6th, 2009Hi guys, I thought I would just pop back for a quick update as i am so used to writing a diary that I will have to gradually wean myself off!!
one week off the tablets and…..here is the good news – I have had no spots, the red marks are fading, I no longer have crippling arthritic pain or muscle pain. I have much more energy, have comfortable toilet trips, no flaky skin, and the hand rash is no longer resident. My hair and skin have not, contrary to my previous fears, become terribly greasy, they are still dry.
Strangely, I am having real trouble sleeping since coming off the tablets, this is quite possible because i am so used to needing 10 or more hours of sleep that I go to bed fr earlier than I need to and so cant sleep! I am also less hungry since stopping the tablets, which is probably a good thing. Exercise will begin this week, slowly working up, and alcohol will be gradually introduced to my diet to avoid any kind of binge-drinking ickiness and idiocity to which I have previously been prone in my youth.
Bad news: my eyes and nose have decided that after months of being dry that they would quite like to stream constantly, I guess this will go away soon enough,,,
Other news: I have taken my Prozac down to 30mg a day (well 20 one day, 40 the next etc) and it has caused some pretty ma-hussive mood swings. Today, for example I feel very lonely and sad that I don’t socialise because I’m shy and panic under social situations. I just want to be surrounded by people who deserve the energy and hope which I pour out to people (given half the chance), otherwise I end up feeling empty, like today. And Friday I found out a pretty big mistake I made at work a few weeks ago which means I wasted nearly three weeks (involving many tears), and Im in two minds whether to tell my boss about the anti-depressant dosage reduction causeing loss of concentration and emotional instability or if this will be seen as just making excuses…oh I don’y know, I got through the last four years without telling the boss anything personal why start now…but when I feel happy or inspired its like I actually feel it now, not just a vague sense of slightly improved disposition.
Come on Pickle, pull yourself together, you made this mess, now re-balance you brain chemicals pronto and get on with life and quit bothering these lovely people…..
sazb
7th Sep, 09
That’s great news re you still being spot free. Sorry to hear that you’re mood is not good. You’ve been a massive comfort to everyone on this forum, so you should be really upbeat about that at least. Hope work manages to improve for you, and your mood. Things will improve I’m sure. Hang in there. Take care x
atfanniemarie
7th Sep, 09
Hi Sparks,
atReally pleased you’ve remained spot free and even better the nasty side effects are decreasing rapidly. Sorry to hear you are feeling low, don’t feel like you need to tell your boss if you never have before, I’ve suffered with aniexty in the past and only told close friends. Maybe it’s a case of taking it on the chin and saying sorry for the mistake, hopefully you’ve got a reasonable boss who understands mistakes do happen. You’ve been a star with your whitty banter and fascinating statistical facts, we all appreciate you on here, especially for cheering us up in our darker moments. So thank you.
Take Care
FM
x
spottyguy
7th Sep, 09
Prozac & Roaccutane-you dont do things by halves do you!! hahajust keep thinking to yourself-’if I can do this, I can do anything!! This time will pass, things always change.
atsparklypickle
7th Sep, 09
Lynda, Im replying here to avoid hijacking FM’s diary post
so far I have continued with the same SIMPLE moisturizing face wash and light moisturiser, but seem to need less moisturiser as the days go by, but I am applying a tiny bit of Differin (Adaptene) cream to my cheeks and chin at night after moisturisation to fade the scars and marks and keep my pores from getting blocked….. If I find my skin becoming greasy then I will buy another simple cleanser of sorts for combination skin, but there is NO WAY I am going back to using drying products on my skin like those medicated face washes which totally wrecked my skin’s oil balance!! Mother always told me I shoud moisturise even if my skin was greasy and I wonder if I couldnt have given my skin a head start by giving a bit of extra moisture rather than drying the hell out of it and convincing it to make EVEN more oil….
Sparks x
atsparklypickle
7th Sep, 09
Spottyguy,
for sure I’m gonna feel like a superhero if I can get off the Prozac totally (ten years on it at the max dose), even if I am a bit of a weepy superhero who’se superpower is crying so much that the enemy feels sorry for her and gives her a hug rather than attacking…..hehe….I know it wont be forever, the withdrawal effects will keep going until I’ve been off the stuff for a month or two and and Im only half way off it so far……deep breaths, rolls of eyes, at least Im half alive now….
Roaccutane vs Prozac withdrawal…… I’ll give you my perspective on this if I manage the latter but Im so glad I didnt start the comedown from my max dose before I did!! I can only imagine the whingeing !!!
X
atfanniemarie
7th Sep, 09
He he, it was actually me that hijaked Linda’s, sorry Linda, feel free to hijack mine!
atsparklypickle
7th Sep, 09
(doh!) sorry Lynda…another example of just not reading things properly….
atlynda22
7th Sep, 09
Thanks Sparks – I plan to stick with the Simple face wash and moisturizer and the derm recommended Differin rather than benzyl peroxide. Twenty-eight days and counting!
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